What to Do???

My contract in Korea is coming to an end. I'll have been here for 2.5 years. Now I'm trying to think about what I want to do next. I really don't know what I want to do. I miss home. I miss my family and my friends. I know that being away has cost me a lot of precious memories and experiences with those people. The longer I'm away the more I feel like I'm losing my bonds with the people I love in Canada. I'm afraid of being forgotten.

Other than being with those people, there is nothing that makes me really want to be in Canada right now. There is not one thing that I'm like "THAT is exactly what I want to do." There are so many things that I think "I could potentially do that". There's art and french and teaching and studying more or traveling. I go back and forth day to day about what I want to do.

I have thought about going back to France and try to improve my french. I feel like I have really lost most of what I learned way back in school. I could possibly get a job teaching English. I have a few friends who are still there. The problem is it's expensive and not easy to get a working visa etc. If I do go there would I live in Paris, the city I love and just deal with the pains of finding a place to live? Or would I live in another city and make new memories in a new place? It could be cheaper and the people might be friendlier. I think I could work on art and study French on my own.

But then I think about going to a new country that I haven't yet had the chance to live in. I think Eastern Europe would be cool and much more affordable. I have honestly been thinking about going to Ukraine. I think it's terrible that I really don't know much about the country that half of my family comes from. I need to do more research.

Then there are still all the wonderful countries in Asia that are in need of English teachers like no other countries. I wouldn't mind going to Japan or China or Vietnam or Thailand or Indonesia or or or. I think I could live in any of them...I've had such a good experience here that I feel confident that I could be ok in another place over here.

I know that it would be smart for me to go to a French speaking place so that I could better my understanding and knowledge of the language. Maybe one day I could go back to school and get a teaching degree and then use the French in that way. But I really don't know if I want to be a teacher for the rest of my life! There are days when I think I can't do this anymore. When I'm around my friends who work at real schools and I hear about all the stuff they have to do and the politics and so on I think it's not for me.

I just want to travel everywhere! Since I don't have the money to just go wherever whenever, it seems that teaching English is the best option for me to go somewhere new. I guess I can keep teaching if it means that I get to see new things.

I have to just buckle down and do my research. I know I need to stop procrastinating my decision making process. This is hard for me. Korea has been so good for me. I want to have another great experience, but I'm a little scared. I'm overwhelmed by the job boards and the requirements. I'm so scattered.