Realizations

Lately I've been thinking about the people I know here in Korea. We get put in this place together with people from different places. Not just from different countries, but different backgrounds, personalities, likes and dislikes, points of view and so on. Most of the people I'm surrounded by each day are not people that I would ever see myself spending any amount of time with if I was back home in my usual setting.

That being said I've come to realize that differences can be good. I made some really amazing friends with whom I know I never would have thought would work. It's amazing how the one person I've realized that might be the only one I can trust is probably the one that is the most different from myself.

I'm also realizing that the ones that are "on paper" the most similar to myself couldn't be more different from what I want to surround myself with.

It's also very clear that those who were my friends before coming to this place are going to stay my friends through the thick and the thin. All of this will pass and we're still going to be there or one another. I love that.

I know this is all a little cryptic. I need to keep it this way.

I'm tired of people being fake nice. I'm tired of being treated like crap for standing up for friends when no one else will. I'm tired of being ignored. I'm tired of people falling over people. I'm tired of people doing whatever needed to get someone's attention. I'm tired of extending invitations. I'm tired of minds changing. I'm tired of emails with such strong words and no actions to back them up.

I'm tired of being tired. I don't think I can take much more of these constant headaches that all of this is bringing on.